My Truth

Confidence

One of the biggest issues is that I have a lack of confidence. I have recently noticed that it is one of the main reasons that I get so stressed and I think about things that I should just move on with. The main reason I think I lack confidence is because the one person I had put the most thought into had lost my trust. After coming to my sense that my mom was right that my dad actually didn't want anything to do with me. Honestly he had forgotten who I was. It wasn't until one day that my mom and I had gone into  a gas station that he had happened to be at he was delivering things there. I had noticed him and has smiled, but the most heart wrenching thing was when he didn't no who I was at all. I remember him saying that he didn't even recognize his own daughter. With that being the fact I had kinda just given up. I'm still not completely aware of the reason that he didn't care to be around, but when I used to think about it I figured it was something that I personally did to impact his choice. I am starting to come to the sense that it wasn't me that made him leave. Thinking about that has helped me think that I can be more a of a confident person, and open up to the people that actually do care.  I need to trust myself, knowing that it wasn't my fault and build enough confidence to be able know that I won't let it happen again.I need to build the confidence to move on from the past. I can't change it. It was his choice.