Work.

“A dream doesn’t become reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work.” (Colin Powell) That is the issue that as individual I have, believing that everything should just be easy and in a sense handed out to me. It’s not that easy. It takes work to get the things you desire. Work is not only what you mentally do, it’s also in my opinion a step(big or little) that someone takes to accomplish or achieve a goal. The only way to achieve that goal is to work on weakness.

Every person has weaknesses. Some just choose not to accept them, I have come to realize where and what my weaknesses are. The failure that I have is that I expect a lot when I do minimum. For example, if I am at work and am told to do someone else's job, I would do an uncomplete job just to get it done, to continue what I was doing before hand. Where I fail, is thinking that someone would be pleased more with it partially done, then having it completely done, which is not true. Not completely doing the job is just as bad as not doing it at all. Which leads to another fault, assuming.  It gets you nowhere, especially when you assume for the wrong reason. Like not listening to someone when told to do or have something, than assuming something that was never said; miscommunication or overthinking things. Sometimes overthinking brings the chance of failure. An example being, not trusting yourself and thinking that you can’t do anything, not being honest to yourself or others around you.

“Build up your weaknesses until they become your strong points(Knute Rockne),” this is true, me as well as it should be for everybody. Everyone has the ability to build their weaknesses, and make them strengths. I think that I need to not depend on the easy way out of thing that I don’t want to do in life. I need to just take responsibility, and do what is asked of me. I have to stop assuming things, and listen to what is fully said, to not have to be so negative about things and think that I can’t do it. I just have to work on the weakness I am aware of and focus on them instead of creating even more weaknesses for myself. I need to find a motivation to want to make a change and it all starts with me.

My Truth

Confidence

One of the biggest issues is that I have a lack of confidence. I have recently noticed that it is one of the main reasons that I get so stressed and I think about things that I should just move on with. The main reason I think I lack confidence is because the one person I had put the most thought into had lost my trust. After coming to my sense that my mom was right that my dad actually didn't want anything to do with me. Honestly he had forgotten who I was. It wasn't until one day that my mom and I had gone into  a gas station that he had happened to be at he was delivering things there. I had noticed him and has smiled, but the most heart wrenching thing was when he didn't no who I was at all. I remember him saying that he didn't even recognize his own daughter. With that being the fact I had kinda just given up. I'm still not completely aware of the reason that he didn't care to be around, but when I used to think about it I figured it was something that I personally did to impact his choice. I am starting to come to the sense that it wasn't me that made him leave. Thinking about that has helped me think that I can be more a of a confident person, and open up to the people that actually do care.  I need to trust myself, knowing that it wasn't my fault and build enough confidence to be able know that I won't let it happen again.I need to build the confidence to move on from the past. I can't change it. It was his choice.